Or perhaps a pause button? I could press pause in the morning, get all my "work" done for the day and then press play and start where I left off with the girls and John.
Well neither of these FANTASTIC ideas will ever exist so I have to take a different approach to get things done, or maybe NOT get things done.
Anyone who knows me knows that I am a tad OCD. Some days worse than others. However, having kids has forced me to let go a little bit. I would prefer to go to bed every night with the dishes washed, dried and put away and the house picked up but in reality that isn't always an option. I would prefer to have the hamper always empty but again- not reality. I have had to "let go" of some of these obsessions. At the end of the day the time spent with my husband and my girls is FAR more important than whether or not my house is tidy.
A good friend of mine just recently told me "Jenn, no one's gravestone ever read: 'She had a perfectly clean house.'" (Not sure I remember the words exactly but you get my point!)
Her telling me this really hit home. She was so right. When all is said and done I want to be remembered for more than the fact that I am organized and neurotic about being on time. (However- being late is NOT ok haha). I want to be remembered for being a wife, a mom, a daughter, a friend. And a good one at that.
I am tackling this "change" one day at a time. Some days I do better than others. Some days I can let go easily and some days I just HAVE to get it all done. Finding a happy medium is my goal. I have a running "To Do" list on my phone memo pad and I will check things off as they get accomplished.
At the end of the day (or week, or month) it will all eventually get done. I just can't worry and stress about it getting done at this very moment. At this very moment I want to hold Jillian and laugh with Jordyn. I want to have time with John. Because they, not the laundry, are what matter most.
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