Today is my last day off before I start my new job tomorrow. I haven't been shy to ANYONE about the fact that I am not too happy about this soon to come change.
I have been "work free" for almost 7 months and have loved it more than I could ever have imagined I would. When I worked after having Jordyn I loved it and never, ever thought I could be a stay at home mom. I loved going to work every day and seeing my co-workers. I loved having "me time", even if it was at my desk.
However, while being off since Jillian was born, the girls and I have created a different kind of life together. We have established a pretty solid routine which I have grown to love. And I love the flexibility of our week, our freedom to pretty much come and go as we please.
I have loved having a tidy home (even though it is a lot of work to keep it that way) and having dinner ready when John gets home.
I am going to miss my mornings with the girls. I am going to miss my trips to Target and our walks to the grocery store. I am going to miss our Fridays with my mom.
I am trying to stay positive about this change but it is hard. Life is about to get a tad more chaotic and I am not sure I am ready for the ride.
John and I sat down yesterday to figure out a weekly schedule and while I will admit it makes it a little easier to swallow once it is on paper, it also makes it that much more real.
I have promised to give it a try but if it just doesn't work for our family or if something more convenient comes along then John is on board for me to make some changes- that has also put my mind at ease a little bit.
A new routine will have to be made and I can only hope we will all adjust and accept the change.
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