Mommy's Controlled Chaos: Changes, Changes, Changes

I don't do very well with change. Never have.

I like routine.

I like tradition.

I like knowing what the future holds (to a certain extent of course).

With the future of my "new job" up in the air I am going crazy. It isn't that I am 100% excited about the idea of going back to work I just know it will happen sooner rather than later and I kind of want to get the ball rolling. I want to start our new schedule. Get our day to day routine ironed out. And until I have a new job and know what our routine is going to be I can't get organized. It is driving me bonkers.

Another thing completely weighing on my mind is the change coming for Miss Jordyn. Tomorrow is her last day of daycare until I find a new job (Lord knows when that will be!). Jordyn has been going to Lupe's since she was 8 weeks old and the idea of not seeing them three days a week is really sad for me. I feel like I am taking Jordyn away from her friends. When Monday comes around and she asks when she gets to go to Lupe's I may cry. Actually I take that back. I KNOW I will.

Jordyn will be starting preschool after the first of the year so I know this change is a positive thing but it is still hard. And of course once I find a job she will be back there on the days she isn't at school but without a job in sight I can't look past "the sadness". I am so proud of Jordyn and I know she is MORE than ready for preschool so I need to remind myself that John and I are doing the right thing.

On a positive note, a change that I LOVE is our rolling baby. Jillian rolled for the first time almost two months ago but since only rolls about once a week. Well this morning I was on the phone with my girl friend telling her about it and what do you know??? About an hour later she started rolling, and rolling, and rolling! I swear she decided to prove me wrong- and boy did she! I just love that baby to pieces and her smile (even if at 2 am) warms my heart!

Here are some recent pictures........